Report and Rant
Hello all, I am approaching the middle of week 2 of my treatment and considering I probably glow in the dark I am doing very well. What they have in mind for me is 3 chemo shots spread out over 6 weeks and 7 weeks of 5x a week radiation. At this point I have 1 chemo and 7 radiations down, go boy!!!! In the immortal words of Paul Rodgers and Jimmy Page " Turn me on tonight I' m Radioactive".
The doctor stated tonight he feels significant reduction in the size of the tumor. Go Go Boy!!! In an effort to personalize my plight I have named my tumor " Limpy", I know some of you are going WTF but it's not his fault, in fact I'm not sure whose fault it is but at this point playing the blame game would be counterproductive to my new zen like philosophy. In fact to take it to an even higher level I am sending "limpy" huge amounts of love and forgiveness. It doesn't take a rocket scientist to see that really angry people don't live as long or as happy as those who surround themselves with love and compassion. My new mantra, "Love is all you need" (lennon/McCartney)
I am still chanting my way through the treatments, I find it very calming and helpful. As for my gray slippery friend I have also named him, it just seemed appropriate since we are spending so much time together. I call him Naya, it is the Hawaiian word for dolphin and he really likes it!! so there to all the people that think if the table tilts anymore there won't be any marbles left.Pffftht
I now have enlisted all of Naya's pod to help me. I know the strength from my friends is immeasurable and has no limit. I use their energy to take to and from the the doctors appointments and to boost myself in times of waning hope. I will not subject him to any radiation treatment for as formidable of a spirit he has I do not think he would comprehend why and what is going on. I release him to go chase fish and frolic in the ocean until I need him again. As a matter of fact he says enck enck enck to you all. I am so grateful to have that source to rely on. My message to you all DOLPHIN FREE TUNA ONLY!!!!
Since my initiation into the cancer club my eyes have been forced wide open, to say I turned a blind eye would be a huge understatement. If you have never had anyone in your life impacted by this you are extremely lucky and I hope that luck holds forever. I have seen small children who have no idea what is going on with them and they still hold on to that innocent smile and laughter of childhood, god bless these children they are truly the white knights that stand between good and evil. They laugh they play and I cry, not because I'm sad, okay I'm sad, but because I am so moved by their will, fortitude and endurance.
I see people of all ages in varying stages of disease and cure and the health workers that tend to these souls are a very special breed. Evidently the angels are not just limited to jobs in heaven. God bless them.
Now for my rant. The cancer I have is normally the kind that affects people who are cigarette smokers. Having never smoked a cigarette in my life, well it it what it is. I could blame it on all the second hand smoke I've inhaled in all the bars I've played in but remember love not anger. What really gets to me is I see strangers, I see friends, I see family with a cigarette in your hand. Are you truly that stupid!!! Yes stupid!!! You've been kicked out of every decent establishment in the country If you don't have the balls to quit killing yourself then come into my world and see what happens " When Cigarettes Attack" I'm done Larry
PS I'm sure I've pissed some smokers off. good or maybe I poked them in their blind eye.
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